Blustery…

Here are a few shots from yesterday…

our beautiful trees…

leaves changing color daily…

blustery seems to describe the weather,

and how I felt mentally and physically…

it was a chili kind of day so I went to the store to pick up some beans, sauce, and ground beef…between getting to the store, and carrying the groceries in I could not breath…I also had a bit of a breakdown when I wanted to change my sheets and didn’t have the energy…

it is so frustrating, day after day, the feelings of inadequacy this cancer brings…

inadequacy in not being able to work regularly thus, inadequacy in not being paid regularly

inadequacy in regularly not being able to do ‘normal’ things around the house

make my bed (ie; change the sheets)

wash the dishes

walk the dog

clean the bathroom

cook

inadequacy in not being able to be emotionally genuine to myself or others

inadequacy in not being able to support others in my life (ie; be the friend I know myself to be)

inadequacy in not being the support to my mom I wish to be

inadequacy in not always wanting to always get out of bed

inadequacy in not having the energy to help in the running of errands or shopping

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.  -2nd Corinthians 12:9

GothBarbie said...Hello~

i wish you didn't have to feel inadequate - but i am sure no one is looking at you and thinking you are inadequate right now! 
We are all always our own most harsh critics, so think if someone else was going through what you are - what would you expect FROM THEM? then maybe try to only expect that from yourself!

Try to treat yourself like you would treat your best friend! It might help!

Best Wishes - ALWAYS!
Sara

JoyAnne said...Yes, His grace is enough. My, aren't we blessed!